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I am a teacher. I can't spell well or speak correctly. How did I ever become a teacher you ask? Only God. It's a long story. I am an introvert. I think more than I speak. I enjoy being alone, and at home as much as possible. I want to reflect God's love to every person God brings to me. I am married to a wonderful, caring, supportive man. He loves to help others, and is willing to listen and talk to those in need. He loves to garden, and work outside. Cookies are his favorite. We love drinking coffee and eating cookies together. I have a burden for hurting children. I wish all children everywhere, felt love, safety and security, from not only their Heavenly Father, but also from a family that cares more about the needs of their children then their own personal needs. I love looking for small glimpses of God's great love. They are all around us, every day. Have you noticed? Do you know of God's love for you?

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

SO THAT YOU MIGHT BELIEVE

We have been studying the story of Mary, Martha, and Lazarus in our Sunday school lesson. Not all of these thoughts are original with me, but as I pondered this story the last few days, Jesus began to show me something new.

Here is just a recap of the story. You can find more details in the Bible in John 11.

*Lazarus was sick.
*His sisters Mary and Martha called for Jesus to come heal him.
*Jesus loved this family!
*Jesus waited 2 days before beginning His journey to help them.
*Lazarus died. Jesus was too late.
*When Jesus heard that Lazarus had died he told His disciples, “For your sake, I am glad I was not there. It will help you to believe.”
*By the time Jesus got there, Lazarus had been dead 4 days.

*Martha ran out to Him and said, “Lord, if you would have been here, my brother wouldn't have died! But even now, I know whatever You ask of God, He will give it to You.”
*Jesus replied, “Your brother will rise again.”
*Martha said, “I know that he will rise again in the resurrection at the last day.”
*Jesus said, “I am the Resurrection and the Life, whoever believes in Me, although he may die, yet he shall live. And whoever continues to live and believe in Me shall never die at all. Do you believe this?”
*Martha replied, “Yes, Lord, I believe that You are the Christ, the Son of God who has come into the world.”

*Mary ran out to Jesus and dropped down at His feet sobbing and said, “Lord, if you would have been here my brother wouldn't have died.”
*When Jesus saw her weeping, He was deeply moved in His spirit, and troubled, and He wept.
*Jesus asked to be taken to the tomb.
*As they walked to the tomb Jesus continued to groan and sigh repeatedly.

*Upon reaching the tomb Jesus commanded that the stone be taken away.
*Martha said, “Lord by this time he's really gonna stink cause he's been dead for 4 days.”
*Jesus replied, “Didn't I tell you that if you believe you would see the glory of God?”
*Jesus prayed, “Father, I thank You that You have heard Me. Yes, I know You always hear and listen to Me. But I have said this for the benefit of those standing around Me so they might believe that You did send Me.”
*Jesus shouted with a loud voice, “Lazarus, come out!”
*Lazarus came out, his hands and feet wrapped in burial clothes, and a napkin wrapped around his face.
*Jesus said, “Free him of his burial clothes, and let him go.”
*Upon seeing what Jesus had done, many of the Jews who were there believed in Him.


Many of us are on our own journey to the tomb, half expecting a resurrection, half doubting that a resurrection is even possible. It's that parent of a son or daughter that is making poor choices and walking farther away from the Lord. It's that mother in the ICU watching her baby die. It's that father of 5 who has just lost his job. That single mom who is barely hanging on. Maybe it's a physical illness that wakes you up in the middle of the night shaking with pain. Or the news of a close friend diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. Financial stress or relationship strains. Work drama, busy schedules, or vehicle breakdowns. Whatever your grief, you are crying out to the Lord, “If You would have been here, this wouldn't have happened! Don't You see? Don't You care?” And what does Jesus do,

He weeps.
He weeps with you.

And He says, “My precious child, this is happening to you so you might believe. Can you trust Me?"


Heartbroken and lonely I cried to the Lord
This is too much I can't take anymore
My spirit is heavy with sorrow and grief
Where are You, Lord? I need some relief
Don't You see what I'm going through?
I don't understand what You are trying to do

Softly and gently He spoke to my heart
My child, He said, I've been there from the start
I have heard you crying I have felt your pain
I have held you close and whispered your name
You've been through so much, I know and I care
In time you will see that I've always been there

I rested securely safe in His arms
My Father was good and He cared for my heart
His perfect peace came and covered my soul
His presence was there like I never knew before
And as time went on Jesus lessened the pain
He brought rest to my heart and more peace once again
-A. Weaver




In all this, in this deep dark journey to the tomb we must keep our focus on Jesus. He is there. Always. He cares deeply, and He has you in the center of His hand. He will never let go of you. EVER! He is fighting the enemy on your behalf. Jesus is in control. He's got it all figured out. As painful as it is, there is no other plan that is more perfect for you. It's for your good. He turns the ugly into something that can be used to glorify Him. Your faith will become stronger because of your grief. Your relationship with Jesus will become sweeter and more precious as you cling to His promises and trust in His heart. As others see what God is doing in you, they too will begin to believe. Their faith will be stronger because of your grief. God will use your response, your journey to the tomb, as a testimony of His great love. It will not be in vain. It will not be all loss. 


Jesus WILL bring life to your dying, hopeless situation. He may be there right now, crying with a loud voice, “Loose the grave clothes, and let him go.” Some journeys to the tomb are longer than others. Some experience the resurrection immediately. Others the journey takes years. Still other's wont experience the resurrection until Jesus comes in the last day for that final Resurrection. But they will experience it. Someday, when it's the right time. When God says, “ENOUGH! Come forth!” Then all will be made new. All grief and sorrow will be washed away. What a moment! What a glorious day that will be!




IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL

I was laying on the ultrasound table. Shawn was holding my hand on my left and the nurse was on my right doing her thing. We were waiting in anticipation to hear if our baby was still with us. The nurse had the screen turned in such a way that we couldn't see it. I wanted to scream. “Can't you at least let me see?” I wanted to ask a hundred questions. “Does everything look normal? Is the baby okay? The heart is still beating right? Can you make the heart keep beating? Do something! Make sure that baby is still okay.” But there was nothing I could do except lie still and wait. There was protocol to follow. Even tho she already knew the answer she would first have to call my doctor who would then call me with the news. It could be a few hours before we knew.... yes or no, life or death, joy or sorrow...

A feeling of panic began to rise up deep within me. “I have to know now!” Tears began to flow, again. I started praying. “Lord Jesus, please surround us with Your peace. God, I need Your peace right now.” Immediately words from a song began to filter through my mind and calm my soul.


When peace like a river attendeth my way
When sorrows like sea billows roll
Whatever my lot
Thou hast taught me to say
It is well, it is well with my soul

There it was, peace. The peace I prayed for gently came and rested upon me. I felt it as clearly as if someone would have lain a warm shawl across my shoulders. We would be okay. Somehow. God is here, and it doesn't matter what the circumstances are, God would take care of us. There is no safer place to be then in God's presence, in His plan.


A few hours later we got the word that our precious baby was in heaven with Jesus.


As the days went by and life tried to return to normal I continued to sense the peace of God surrounding me. It was beyond understanding. I can't explain it, it was there.





A few weeks later, on a Sunday morning, I happened to come across an article written by Ann Voskamp that really spoke to my heart.


All that matters, Lord, is that it is well with my soul.
It may not be well with our bodies, the sink, the laundry,
the work, the wallet, the week ahead, or the world,
but it is well with our soul because...
Your grace touch is salve enough for our wounds.
Your certain hope is water enough for our parched places.
Your unfailing arms are more than welcome enough for our rest.
So it is well with my soul and that is why all is well,
why even now, even we are well.
-Ann Voskamp

I read it and reread it. It was perfect. I read it to Shawn and we talked about it. Yes, that's exactly it. I can say it is well with my soul, because God's arms are holding us. I continued on with my morning, made a cup of coffee, and Shawn turned on the radio. The first words of the song that was playing was... “It is well, it is well with my soul.” I stared at the radio and Shawn exclaimed, “That's the song!!” You can't explain it. It was no coincidence. In fact, it wasn't even the famous hymn by Philip Bliss that was playing, it was a song by Kristene DiMarco and she had penned that famous phrase into her song. We had turned on the radio at the exact moment of that song to hear those words, “It is well, it is well with my soul.” God ordained that moment. He created it, and made sure everything was exactly in place at the right time. His hand was clearly upon us that morning. The experience left me in awe of God's love for me. He loves me so much, and I am so undeserving. Too often I fail to praise Him or forget to spend time with Him or complain about silly things that don't go my way. His love is faithful. My disobedience and negligence doesn't change or diminish His love for me.

God is indeed so very good. His presence, His peace, His love, His faithfulness, is beyond understanding. I can't explain it.

May Christ through your faith [actually] dwell (settle down, abide, make His permanent home) in your hearts! May you be rooted deep in love and founded securely on love. That you may have the power and be strong to apprehend and grasp with all the saints [God's devoted people, the experience of that love] what is the breadth, and length, and height and depth of it. [That you may really come] to know [practically, through experience for yourselves] the love of Christ which far surpasses mere knowledge [without experience]: that you may be filled [through all your being] unto all the fullness of God [may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself]!” (Ephesians 3:17-19 amplified)

Chew on that for awhile.